http://hmmiwonderwhatif.blogspot.com/
check it out ;D
oh and i got bangs that looks (a lot -_-) like this person's -_-
xxx
inoue mao
oh and i got bangs that looks (a lot -_-) like this person's -_-
xxx
inoue mao
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
145: burning the midnight oil... hopefully i can wake up for school tomorrow
I just finished watching this drama series, and it taught me a lot on relationships, like the super basic stuff... its not that deep.. its more of a slap in the face
so here it is!
even if we were to be in a relationship wed lose interest of each other once we see each others faults.
relationships are scary in a different way
love makes you a coward
it will reveal everything about you, your faults, and your complexes... everything
that's why in dramas, the good best friend type of guy does not always win since the girl already knows all the other guys faults so his good points are enhanced (the other guy being the stubborn type of guy who's usually the protagonist of the story)
but instead of being scared of being with someone cause it wont last, the true fear is of losing someone because you haven't overcome your personal fear nor have you made a move to do so. imagine a life without the person you love.
xxx
Aya Ōmasa
so here it is!
even if we were to be in a relationship wed lose interest of each other once we see each others faults.
relationships are scary in a different way
love makes you a coward
it will reveal everything about you, your faults, and your complexes... everything
that's why in dramas, the good best friend type of guy does not always win since the girl already knows all the other guys faults so his good points are enhanced (the other guy being the stubborn type of guy who's usually the protagonist of the story)
but instead of being scared of being with someone cause it wont last, the true fear is of losing someone because you haven't overcome your personal fear nor have you made a move to do so. imagine a life without the person you love.
xxx
Aya Ōmasa
Saturday, March 6, 2010
144: hey soul sister
I found this website that lets you anonymously talk to strangers online (like a chat thing)
It got me thinking about loads of stuff...
like.. theres this one time when one of them talked to me and was like, this is an anonymous chat and you'll never see me again for the rest of your life so tell me your deepest darkest secret.
i did btw.
and that person just said ok and left the convo.
but then that got me thinking..to that person I'm a stranger as well... and why did they want to know my secret anyway?
and theres the whole thing about being a STRANGER.
no one knows me, no one knows i'm lying, i can be anyone i want to be.
but that goes for them as well.. they can think im a complete idiot for believing whatever crap they say.
at first i just began talking crap like saying random things like I'M A NINJA and see how they reacted.
there was even one time when i talked japanese.
i got so many reactions.
then this got me thinking... on the other side, through all the lies and hidden identities there IS a living thing there.
and that goes for me too! I am a life too! but they dont know that, i mean they do... but they wont know me know me, so if i tell the truth it could still be a lie, and when i lie it might as well be the truth. they'll never know. yet when i type and talk, why do i feel like i still have that feeling, that i cant say it. my secret. or that im scared to show my identity. there is that whole trust issue. like, what if i actually thought this person was friendly, but like... was only pretending?
theres that whole feeling of betrayal as well.
but... its still fun.. like..
once i got used to the whole system i started saying motivational things like THIS IS IT. THIS IS YOUR SIGN TO GO FOR IT!
or THIS IS YOUR SLAP IN THE FACE. GO FOR IT!
And then I'll quickly exit so they dont have to reply. hopefully it cheered people up.
then it got me thinking... like i wanna hear peoples voices.
so i asked them things like what is the thing you love most in your life?
some people said things like, music, friends, family. (one even said photography!)
then there are those who are random and go DINASAURS
then there are the rude ones that go , I get to fuck
and then there are those who are just easy going and say; the fact that you came into it :D or everything :)
its so interesting.... that there are these lives we are unaware of. they are there! just, unnoticed they live they're path in the world they see.
one of the replies i got was i dont believe in love.
i hope i was able to change that persons life.
I want to use this to help change peoples life!
imagine... its like.. fate we met..
i mean apart from those rude bastards that just go on to find a lame way to get laid and fuck on the net. but STILL its fate we met!
this is one of the best things ive found my whole life!
i get to meet people without really meeting them!
i met so much nice people :):):)
it sucks that as soon as i close that window, theres no way to meet them again.
xxx
Maki Horikita
It got me thinking about loads of stuff...
like.. theres this one time when one of them talked to me and was like, this is an anonymous chat and you'll never see me again for the rest of your life so tell me your deepest darkest secret.
i did btw.
and that person just said ok and left the convo.
but then that got me thinking..to that person I'm a stranger as well... and why did they want to know my secret anyway?
and theres the whole thing about being a STRANGER.
no one knows me, no one knows i'm lying, i can be anyone i want to be.
but that goes for them as well.. they can think im a complete idiot for believing whatever crap they say.
at first i just began talking crap like saying random things like I'M A NINJA and see how they reacted.
there was even one time when i talked japanese.
i got so many reactions.
then this got me thinking... on the other side, through all the lies and hidden identities there IS a living thing there.
and that goes for me too! I am a life too! but they dont know that, i mean they do... but they wont know me know me, so if i tell the truth it could still be a lie, and when i lie it might as well be the truth. they'll never know. yet when i type and talk, why do i feel like i still have that feeling, that i cant say it. my secret. or that im scared to show my identity. there is that whole trust issue. like, what if i actually thought this person was friendly, but like... was only pretending?
theres that whole feeling of betrayal as well.
but... its still fun.. like..
once i got used to the whole system i started saying motivational things like THIS IS IT. THIS IS YOUR SIGN TO GO FOR IT!
or THIS IS YOUR SLAP IN THE FACE. GO FOR IT!
And then I'll quickly exit so they dont have to reply. hopefully it cheered people up.
then it got me thinking... like i wanna hear peoples voices.
so i asked them things like what is the thing you love most in your life?
some people said things like, music, friends, family. (one even said photography!)
then there are those who are random and go DINASAURS
then there are the rude ones that go , I get to fuck
and then there are those who are just easy going and say; the fact that you came into it :D or everything :)
its so interesting.... that there are these lives we are unaware of. they are there! just, unnoticed they live they're path in the world they see.
one of the replies i got was i dont believe in love.
i hope i was able to change that persons life.
I want to use this to help change peoples life!
imagine... its like.. fate we met..
i mean apart from those rude bastards that just go on to find a lame way to get laid and fuck on the net. but STILL its fate we met!
this is one of the best things ive found my whole life!
i get to meet people without really meeting them!
i met so much nice people :):):)
it sucks that as soon as i close that window, theres no way to meet them again.
xxx
Maki Horikita
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